mistersexxxy

...omg...today was going great...i went to the football game with Dana...i 4got all about my problems and shit and just had a great time...after the game i was giving every1 a ride home it was left to me cole and Dana...just us 3...and cole and Dana start this fucked up thing about how much better they are than me cause they have things in common that i dont...it gets on my nerves so much...and ive been so fucking angry lately...they do it all the time...they think its fun and they think i enjoy it too i guess...i ended up yelling at the two of them to just shut the fuck up and they finally quit when Dana got out at her house laughing and cole says "are u serious?" fucking cunt...omg...now im so fucking pissed and i promised Dana i wouldnt do nething stupid...and im afraid if i do she might hurt herself...wow...i care so much about a person who apparently wants me to hate her...such a fucked up life...agh well...like i said...lifes a bitch. and cole acting like he didnt know i was serious about shutting up and stoping that stupid shit...i told them how stupid it was...and how stupid they were for doing it...then i tried to beat the hell outa cole but Dana was in the way. ignorant shit... <3

hmmm...wow...i cant get over today being a good day...or maybe its just that today is better than yesterday...i got a good note from Dana today...not asking me to forgive her and take her back tho which is wut im really hoping for...bah...i would tell u all wut it said but i dont know if she would want me to so im not...i did find out that i worried her a lot last night tho...and that she thought she wouldnt see me at school today fearing that i had killed myself...and lots of other yummy stuff

ok well note today from Dana. i found out she was getting stoned again but i cant say nething cuz of the thing on my arm...grrr like i said...i just cant win...o well i told her i would try to be happy to keep her happy so now i go back into being cheerful all around ppl but all of u unlucky fuckers get to know wuts wrong with me yay!!!!! neway...this will be one of the only posts thats says this...TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY!! for the most part...the hole Dana getting stoned thing cause i was unhappy kinda fucked it up but it was better...

hmm i missed the bus...shit...o well...not too bad. i woke up to late to fuck anything up by now other than the bus so i guess i will find out wuts gona go wrong at school. yay. the cut on my arm helped...needs to be deeper tho...i'll try to avoid doing it again but it felt good and i liked the blood so it might be a bit tempting...newayz thats enuff for now.

grrr i just realised how fucking big the font was on the other posts...some cunt changed the size of the IE font to super fucking small and i didnt know how to change it so i made the font on here really big...then i found out how and its fucking huge...grrr...wow something new for me to be pissed off about right b4 bed *adds one to list*

ugh...now i feel like shit again yay!!! i swear my life sucks...called Dana told her about how i planned to cut myself but i couldnt find anything to use...my dagger is too dull 3 times over one spot and im still not bleeding...cant get to the good knives in the kitchen atm and my dad has no extra razor blades...oya and the blades in my razors dont fucking come out...fucking safety shit. so now i think she feels like shit which is not wut i was hoping for...zach is telling her im just looking for attention...and now she tells me that she is upset about something but wont tell me what...so now nothing makes sense...other than the deep burning hatred i have for zach and the desire i have for death...ugh...

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